3 months later- The political game

Although I have seen events pass before my eyes, I think I may never understand a person's own political agenda.

As of now it seems that everything is at a stand still. Since my last post I was able to get an $820.00 grant from Youth Venture and even have the majority of the room done. There were moments of terror that the Safe House would be closed down, and in these past weeks that fear has come to life.

The Safe House was closed. It was closed due to extreme political disorder in the board. I sit terrified that I will lose my grant at any moment. I fear that my moderator of the project will say, "We are getting out." I mostly fear that I will not be able to play with those children and speak to those women in the shelter.

The days are going by and tomorrow I will try to get as much done for the safe house as I can. When there was the fear that we would lose the room from the board, the small group I gathered began to work in quick pases to finish the room. All that is left is to: bring in a table, the two desktops and monitors, and also install some sort of internet in the room. This is a much larger task then it seems. In the mean time I will try to get the first half done, then later the internet problem.

Tomorrow I will be trying to plan the classes we will teach and help at the safe house. I want to help, I want the room to be successful. In those months I was with the women and children I grew very attached to them. I have some pictures (which I was not supposed to take) of the children playing. I want them to be happy. I want the women to be successful. I'll keep trying...I just have to get the courage to post on Youth Venture about this hole in the road.